i’ve had hard times in my life (as have a lot of people). but you all know i’ve had a harder than typical year. several loses. several emotional blows. days of very little hope and lit by darkness. laced with meds for depression and counseling. coupled with a lot of retreating and hiding.

and while i’ve been on meds and in counseling in the past, this time it all seems different. perhaps its because i am desperate for a new feeling and a new healing. i don’t know. all i do know is that exposing old wounds (some 23 years old) is painful and discovering that some of those wounds are self-inflicted, is even more painful. but i am thankful for the pain nonetheless. means i’m hitting on something i need to remedy.

my “thanks” this year can be summed-up in crowder’s “never let go” because He doesn’t. this is the hope i’ve had to and will continue to rely on. and it is Him and His ever-present help that i am thankful for this year.

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When clouds veil sun
And disaster comes
Oh, my soul
When waters rise
And hope takes flight
Oh, my soul

Ever faithful
Ever true
You I know
You never let go

When clouds brought rain
And disaster came
Oh, my soul
When waters rose
And hope had flown
Oh, my soul

Oh, my soul
Overflows
Oh, what love, oh, what love
Oh, my soul
Fills hope
Perfect love that never lets go

Oh, what love, oh, what love
In joy and pain
In sun and rain
You’re the same
Oh, You never let go

what are you thankful for?